This is the part where I start from scratch. This is the part where I get to redesign who I am and I am going to take you guys on this journey. I wouldn’t call in a series per-say, it’s more like a new direction. I want this blog to become more personalized because if I’m being honest I am not an expert… on anything really, but I can share more about me and the things that I’ve learned along what has seemed like a very long journey. Alongside this direction change I want to employ a more lax writing strategy. In saying that you guys are going to see a lot of changes!
I’m in this period of my life where the survivalist mechanisms that I was forced to acquire to survive my childhood no longer serve me. Matter of fact they are actually holding me back. Letting go of the traits that protected me as a child has been painful and scary, but absolutely necessary. I consider myself a very self aware person, and through a variety of tools i’ve been able to heal a lot of my trauma; however, I’ve come to the point in my self growth journey that I need professional help. I’m not ashamed to admit that. I’ve always been an advocate for therapy and honestly the only thing thats prevented me from getting into it sooner has been the financial barrier to entry. Finding a good therapist that I can see frequently at a reasonable price has been difficult to say the least. The last semester of university was hard for so many reasons, but the first being that I didn’t have direction and I still don’t.
As I sit here, soaking in the warmth of Costa Rica, seeing with my own two eyes people happy and content with what we as Americans would consider nothing… It forces me to reevaluate life. It forces me to take on a new perspective and reconsider what I want from this life. Taking a moment to be happy seems selfish when I haven’t even accomplished a fraction of what I set out to do. But in the very same breath I recognize I’m living the life I used to pray for. “One foot in front of the other” that’s what I’ve been telling myself when I’ve been stuck in perfectionist paralysis. I can have what I want from this life. I can create whatever reality I see fit and I know that because I’ve done it. I’m here on a two month trip in Costa Rica with a person I can only describe as God sent.
I enter this new chapter with gratitude and an open heart. With that being said it’s time to get started on these new Pinterest boards.
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